As a submissive I've never been into the traditional role I've had to play during sex. Meanwhile I become frustrated because she wants me to be powerful and in control when I need the exact opposite to feel aroused. I badly need a strong dominant woman to take me by the hand and firmly lead me away from any notion of trying to pretend to be something I'm not. To have that self control demonstrated to be a paper thin illusion in the face of the submission and humiliation that truly turns me on. It's maybe natural that I'm obsessed with becoming a premature ejaculator. My deepest fantasy is for my sexual destruction to be approved of and encouraged by You. To be pulled into a spiral of shame and embarrassment that makes my humiliating wish come true.